#くも膜下出血のラブレター#闘病記
くも膜下出血のラブレター
くも膜下出血のラブレター(1巻)
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Published on: 2026.07.14

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ある夏、くも膜下出血で倒れた著者の実話を漫画化! 普段から健康を大切にしていた主人公が、ある日突然、くも膜下出血になる。 なぜ、くも膜下出血になったのか?

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Page 1

  • A Love Letter from a Subarachnoid Hemorrhage This story is based on the author's real experience of suffering a subarachnoid hemorrhage during the COVID-19 pandemic.

Page 2

  • A Love Letter from a Subarachnoid Hemorrhage A headache that feels like your brain is being squeezed directly.

Page 3

  • Do you have an ideal way for your life to end?
  • Occupation: Manga Artist
  • I do.
  • Live a healthy life past 80...
  • ...and then pass away peacefully without suffering.

Page 4

  • To that end,
  • I live a healthy life now.
  • Plenty of sleep, a proper diet, and moderate exercise.
  • Annual health check-ups.
  • Healthy habits I've maintained for years, with occasional breaks.
  • Perhaps because of that,
  • I'll be fine!
  • I even had a strange sense of confidence.
  • Summer 2020

Page 5

  • My head hurts!
  • Huh? What's this?
  • A pain I've never felt before.
  • A pain that feels like my whole head is being squeezed.
  • It's not a headache I recognize, like from a cold.

Page 6

  • Maybe it's just temporary? I'll rest a bit...
  • If I had to describe this pain...
  • ...it's like Sun Wukong's golden fillet is squeezing my brain directly.

Page 7

  • An ambulance... Should I call one?
  • I'm calling!
  • Hello, this is the fire department.
  • Huh? Is 119 for the fire department?
  • ...Oh, I've made a mistake.
  • I thought I was calling for an ambulance.
  • This is the correct number for ambulances as well.
  • Oh, really! I never knew that.
  • I have a severe headache...
  • It feels like my entire head is being squeezed...
  • The symptoms started about five minutes before I called.
  • It's the first time I've felt a pain like this.

Page 8

  • My name is Yuki Shingetsu... I'm the one who's sick.
  • My current location is...
  • Please give me a phone number where you can be reached.
  • ...080-
  • Have you traveled abroad within the last two weeks?
  • ...Ngh.
  • ...Gah!
  • ...Have you traveled abroad within the last two weeks?
  • ...
  • ...No.

Page 9

  • The ambulance... hurry...!
  • ...Over here.

Page 10

  • I waited near the window to make it easier for the paramedics to get me.
  • Are you Yuki Shingetsu?
  • ...Yes.
  • We'll need your wallet and your health insurance card.
  • ...They're in my room.
  • Please don't move.
  • Huh?
  • If I don't move, how am I supposed to...
  • ...get my wallet and insurance card?
  • In the end...

Page 11

  • They decided to get my wallet and insurance card later.
  • I was rushed to the hospital.
  • During the examination at the hospital, I fell into a coma.
  • Where am I?

Page 12

  • ...Ah.
  • ...A hospital room?
  • Ms. Shingetsu.
  • Are you all right?
  • A nurse?
  • Are you in any pain?
  • My head hurts.
  • Where... where am I?
  • This is Kitahara International Hospital.

Page 13

  • Yuki, you had a subarachnoid hemorrhage.
  • You were brought to this hospital.
  • !!
  • A subarachnoid hemorrhage is caused by a ruptured cerebral aneurysm.
  • Arachnoid mater
  • Subarachnoid space
  • Skull
  • Bleeding occurs in the subarachnoid space.
  • It's accompanied by a severe headache.
  • There are generally three outcomes after treatment, right?
  • Living with after-effects.
  • Death.
  • A full return to society.
  • Each outcome has roughly the same probability.

Page 14

  • Can I move my hands?
  • They moved!
  • What about my legs? Can they move too?
  • Please don't move your legs!
  • !!
  • I can't?
  • Why not?

Page 15

  • A Love Letter from a Subarachnoid Hemorrhage The Cause of the Subarachnoid Hemorrhage

Page 16

  • Previously...
  • I was rushed to the hospital by ambulance after a sudden, severe headache.
  • I was told I had a subarachnoid hemorrhage.
  • When I checked to see if my limbs could move...
  • Don't move your legs!
  • ...Um?
  • We performed a catheter surgery through the base of your thigh.
  • If you move now, you might start bleeding.
  • ...A catheter?
  • How much longer do I have to stay still?
  • Another two hours.
  • What time is it? What day is it?
  • I want to know what's going on.
  • Please tell me.
  • The surgery is already over... right?

Page 17

  • Yes, it's over.
  • Right...?
  • You did just say it was a catheter surgery.
  • I didn't want to have surgery.
  • ...Well, it was a subarachnoid hemorrhage, so...
  • ...I probably would have died without it, but still.
  • My phone! This is great.
  • Oh.
  • Yuki, here's your phone back.
  • Thank you very much.
  • What is an endovascular catheter surgery?
  • Also known as endovascular surgery.

Page 18

  • A tube is inserted through the femoral artery at the base of the leg,
  • and travels through the blood vessels to reach the affected area in the brain.
  • So they didn't have to open my skull.
  • Wow, they can do this kind of surgery now. That's amazing.
  • Now then...
  • Strokes are...
  • subarachnoid hemorrhage cause
  • Cerebral infarction, cerebral hemorrhage, and subarachnoid hemorrhage.
  • They're divided into three types.

Page 19

  • The causes of stroke are similar to those of high blood pressure and diabetes. They are rooted in daily lifestyle habits such as: - Diet - Lack of exercise - Stress - Smoking - Excessive drinking These are also known as 'lifestyle diseases.'
  • This is all stuff I already knew...
  • Also,
  • I haven't been living an unhealthy lifestyle.
  • Diet
  • I'm careful about what I eat every day.
  • Oh, maybe it's that?
  • I think I'm eating healthily, but...
  • ...maybe I'm actually not?
  • I do eat junk food sometimes.
  • ...But my health check-ups always come back normal.
  • Excellent

Page 20

  • Lack of Exercise
  • If anything, I exercise too much.
  • I've even consulted a doctor about it a few times before.
  • You're doing too much weight training and running. Please cut back.
  • I adjusted my workout routine after that.
  • Stress
  • I spend the most time on my mental well-being.
  • ...Or was I just telling myself that?
  • Smoking
  • Excessive Drinking
  • I don't smoke, and I don't drink.
  • Why did I have a subarachnoid hemorrhage?
  • I don't know!
  • ...My head hurts.
  • I'll ask the doctor tomorrow.
  • Ms. Shingetsu, it's about time...
  • Excuse me... Oh... now that I think about it, a long time ago...
  • ...my uncle collapsed from a subarachnoid hemorrhage.
  • ...Ms. Shingetsu!
  • What is it?

Page 21

  • It could be genetic.
  • What?!
  • The Next Day
  • I'm Dr. Hayashi, the neurosurgeon. How are you feeling?
  • I heard from the nurse.
  • That you have a family history of subarachnoid hemorrhage.
  • Doctor

Page 22

  • Your family members may also be at risk for a subarachnoid hemorrhage.
  • My subarachnoid hemorrhage...
  • ...was caused by a genetic factor!
  • Is that possible?

Page 23

  • A Love Letter from a Subarachnoid Hemorrhage We don't laugh because we're happy—we're happy because we laugh.

Page 24

  • Previously...
  • The cause of my subarachnoid hemorrhage...
  • ...was a genetic factor!
  • I learned that this was a possibility.
  • My life in the ICU began suddenly.
  • The ICU is...
  • ...a ward for patients who have survived life-saving procedures.
  • Faced with this sudden, critical condition...
  • ...I was overcome with shock...
  • ...and broke down in tears.
  • Or so you'd think.
  • Ms. Shingetsu.

Page 25

  • Please review these.
  • Don't push yourself, it's okay.
  • Hospital Admission Guide
  • !!
  • This is the admission guide.
  • There are quite a few pages,
  • but there are consent forms and other documents we need you to review and fill out.
  • So many...
  • ...Okay.
  • Pajamas and towels are available for rent.
  • Please check this form for details.
  • Would you like to purchase a toothbrush and slippers?
  • You can purchase anything you need for your hospital stay from this list.
  • ...Okay.
  • ...Yes, I'll buy them.
  • Also...
  • The admission process is more involved than I imagined.
  • Don't push yourself, it's okay.
  • Ooooh...!
  • And then...

Page 26

  • Contacting everyone.
  • Reply, Contact, Reply
  • Work
  • Thankfully, I had submitted all my work projects the day before!
  • It's like a miracle how conveniently I collapsed.
  • I must have worried you all. I'm so sorry.
  • I bet you never thought it was a subarachnoid hemorrhage. I was surprised myself.
  • Family
  • Friends
  • I'll ask them to bring me some things I need.
  • Insurance card, wallet, a new novel.
  • When they ask if I'm okay, what should I say? I don't even know...
  • I'm alive, and I can send emails.
  • So I guess that counts as being okay.
  • I'll just tell them I'm okay.
  • ...

Page 27

  • I'm tired...
  • I'll just zone out for a bit.
  • After regaining consciousness,
  • my first day in the hospital...
  • ...was a busy one.
  • Being alive is a lot of work.
  • And so,
  • as for the symptoms of my subarachnoid hemorrhage...
  • Yuki, how are you feeling?

Page 28

  • ...You know how your head hurts when you oversleep? It's a pain like that.
  • ...Hmm? You have a fever of 38 degrees.
  • The headache gets worse when I lift my head, right?
  • With my subarachnoid hemorrhage, I can move my arms and legs, but...
  • ...the headache becomes severe when I try to sit up.
  • So I'm almost completely bedridden.
  • Am I going to be bedridden forever?
  • There was a time I thought that, but...
  • ...the anxiety didn't last.
  • I'll probably be fine.
  • I vaguely believed in a future where I would make a full recovery.
  • This might sound surprising, but...
  • ...in the early days of my hospitalization for the subarachnoid hemorrhage,

Page 29

  • ...it was peaceful.
  • One of the things creating this peace...
  • Wow, this is fun!
  • Wahahahaha hahahahaha

Page 30

  • ...was the sound of the nurses laughing.
  • That's odd.
  • Ahahahaha hahaha
  • ...I don't think anyone here said anything funny.
  • Ahahahaha hahaha
  • ...Why?
  • Ah...
  • Ahahahaha hahaha
  • ...
  • Waha
  • Ahahahaha hahahahaha
  • Heh.

Page 31

  • ...Pfft, hahaha.
  • Pfft, hah.
  • No! It's not even funny, but...
  • I can't help but laugh! This is ridiculous!

Page 32

  • They know the effect laughter has on patients,
  • so they're laughing on purpose.
  • We don't laugh because we're happy—we're happy because we laugh.
  • I'm reminded of the words of the French philosopher, Alain.
  • A phrase the doctor often repeated in the early days of my hospitalization.
  • The first two weeks after a subarachnoid hemorrhage are the most critical.
  • I would come to understand the meaning of those words a little later on.

Page 33

  • A Love Letter from a Subarachnoid Hemorrhage: My Higher Brain Dysfunction (Aphasia)

Page 34

  • A phrase I heard often in the hospital.
  • Two weeks.
  • Nurse
  • These two weeks are crucial.
  • The first two weeks after a subarachnoid hemorrhage are the critical period.
  • Doctor
  • ...
  • Once two weeks have passed...

Page 35

  • Will this headache go away?
  • Will I be able to leave the hospital?
  • Yes, as long as there are no complications.
  • Two weeks!
  • That's how long it'll take for everything to be resolved.
  • On a scale where the maximum pain is 10...
  • How is your headache right now?

Page 36

  • Right now... it's a weak 3.
  • It hurts when I talk.
  • This was a question I was asked often,
  • and I answered based on my own personal scale.
  • My scale was:
  • A headache where I can use my phone for 20 minutes straight.
  • A headache where I can use my phone for 5 minutes straight.
  • Level 5
  • A headache that makes my body shake when I walk.
  • I feel nauseous.
  • I can't walk with this much pain.
  • Rehab is impossible!!

Page 37

  • Level 10
  • There are no levels 6 through 9.
  • The pain shoots straight to a MAX 10.
  • Keep up the good work with your rehab.
  • You're fine to walk in the hallways.
  • It hurts too much when I sit up. I can't do rehab.
  • He's a monster!
  • Come on, you can do it.
  • ...No, I really feel like I'm going to be sick.
  • Yuki.
  • Yuki, you're trembling. Let's stop rehab for now!
  • Next time, please speak up so we can hear you better.
  • ...
  • ...But I'm supposed to be discharged in two weeks, right?
  • Should I push through?
  • I have to think about my life after I leave the hospital...

Page 38

  • The staff here has a habit of immediately praising any patient who does something that looks healthy.
  • Yuki, that's amazing!
  • Amazing! You're doing great!
  • Well, I used to meditate every morning anyway...
  • Let's do this!

Page 39

  • Let's keep working hard on your rehab!
  • ...
  • Yes!
  • My head still hurts when I sit up, but...
  • ...I'm going to get completely better...
  • ...and leave the hospital in two weeks.
  • Thank you for your support.
  • Day 8 since the onset of the subarachnoid hemorrhage.
  • Yuki, I'm going to change your IV drip.

Page 40

  • How are you feeling?
  • I'm fine.
  • ...Oh.
  • The IV in my left arm hurts.
  • Azami kiw rakwa Q kio.

Page 41

  • Excuse me? What did you say?
  • ...Azami kiw rakwa Q kio.
  • ...? Could you please repeat that?
  • The IV in my left arm hurts.
  • ...Ah.
  • Azai kiw rakaa...Q.

Page 42

  • Have I... lost the ability to speak?

Page 43

  • The first two weeks after a subarachnoid hemorrhage are the most critical.
  • Yuki, please hang on!