It seems that everyone wishes to be acknowledged by others.
A certain famous psychologist...
Desire for Approval
...named it that.
My first impression of her, when I saw her at the entrance ceremony, was...
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...that she was like the desire for approval wearing clothes.
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Sent
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unsugar, thank you again for the manuscript.
It's been getting great reviews here in the editorial department.
Not at all.
I'm still a long way off...
An Active High School Illustrator
Touri Ando
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Sorry for making you stop by on your way home from school.
It's fine. I'm not in any clubs or anything.
It's about the character designs for the next project.
The original author said they want a character with a bit more personality.
Personality... you say?
Sorry, but could you show me a few more variations?
And feel free to draw their expressions more freely, too.
Understood... I'll try to work on it a bit more.
Jot, jot...
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Don't be so disappointed.
Let's make the next one a big hit!
Want something to drink?!
This author is a bit eccentric, but their skills are the real deal.
Well then, I'll be heading out...
I'm heading straight home, so I'm good.
"With your talent, it wouldn't be strange for you to have more SNS followers, so try to be a little more active on that front."
From the editor-in-chief...
"...'I have high hopes for you.'"
...I'll do my best.
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The Next Day
Sigh...
I said I'd do my best, but...
I hate standing out.
When people stand out, they just get dragged into all sorts of trouble.
My account is pretty much just for work.
Who actually likes getting into trouble?
That's why I haven't told anyone at school about my work...
...and I have no intention of ever telling them.
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Art Room
Today, we'll be continuing with the self-portraits we started last week.
Self-Portrait
The parts of your face you like, the parts you dislike...
...draw them all objectively, without hiding anything.
Alright, let's get started, get started.
That's why, in front of others, I don't draw particularly well or poorly.
I aim for a perfectly average level of completion so I don't stand out.
That way, I won't get dragged into anything troublesome...
!
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You again...
Kurisaki Yui...!
Ooba Leia
What's with that hair color? Same as always!
? It's Freshlight's Milky Pink, what about it?
This is why I just can't understand her.
I'm not asking for the name of the color...!
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Did you forget I told you to dye it black by our next class...?
You told me, but it's not in the school rules, so I just ignored it.
That's just common sense.
That you shouldn't come to a sacred place of learning with dyed hair...
Hmm...
Then that applies to you too, right, Teach?
Huh...?
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Kurisaki... what are you talking about...?
Yep, I can definitely smell hair dye.
And the shine on your hair... it's a little unnatural.
!
Aren't YOU the one being improper, coming to school after dyeing your gray hair?
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Th-The rest of the period is for self-study!
Those who are finished, turn in your work at the front!
Okay~
What an idiot...
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Making an enemy of a teacher will never lead to anything good.
To not even realize that saying something like that will only end up hurting her in the long run...
Detention...
Is it?
That's right.
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I believe I told you to draw a 'self-portrait'.
This is less of a self-portrait and more of a caricature...
Therefore, you will redo it.
Aww, but this one's cuter!
See? What did I tell you?
And Ando, you're staying for detention too.
Huh?
It's painfully obvious you're not even trying.
Tch... As expected of an art teacher...
He saw right through me...
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Nice to be here with ya!
...
Hmm, this part would be better like this...
Oh, right.
Mhm, mhm, I see!
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Um...
Could you please be quiet...?
Oh, sorry.
Looks like I tend to talk to myself when I'm concentrating...
She really is a weirdo...
!
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What... is that...?
Oh, this?
I want my self-portrait to be cute, you know.
So I thought I'd use some of my old makeup.
What a novel idea...!
What do you think? Cute?
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It certainly does look cuter that way, I guess...
This way it'll totally stand out at the exhibition, right?
So that's what you were after all along...!
...
Why are you so desperate to stand out?
Hm?
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With that hair and that attitude...
Isn't that why the teacher has it out for you, and why you ended up stuck in this pointless detention?
Oh, I see... So that's why the teacher is always on my case...
You're just realizing that now?!
And don't say he's 'on your case'.
But, you know...
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Wanting to be praised... wanting to be acknowledged...
...isn't that just a natural part of being human?
Because unlike rabbits, humans...
...can actually die from loneliness.
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Just kidding!
The truth is, I just really like drawing!
What do you mean by that...
Doesn't everyone want to do what they love and be praised for it?
Man, I really can't stand her...
Well, I'm done, so I'm heading out.
Huh? That was fast!
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Whoa, you're actually super good at drawing.
?!
Oh, sorry. Did I startle you? Is your phone okay?
I-It's fine, really...
...Besides, I'm not that great...
There are tons of people in this world who are better at drawing than me...
How could someone like me be genuinely happy just from being praised by someone I know...?
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I said too much...!
Hah!
Hmm, 'tons'...
The top 0.0007% or so?
If the world population is about 7 billion, and you're the 50,000th best...
The top 0.0007% or so?
Whoa, you're basically a god!
You should totally brag about it more!!
Is she an idiot or is she smart? Which is it...?
Well... whatever. It doesn't matter.
Well then, I'm leaving.
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Sigh... What a waste of time...
I need to get home quick and submit the revisions for the character designs...
I have to get it done before I get a reminder call...
Swipe up to unlock
!
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This isn't... my phone?!
And who the hell makes their self-portrait their wallpaper?!
Crap... Did we swap phones in the classroom earlier...?!
If so, then Ooba will see the Twitter account I had open just a minute ago...!
Which means everyone in class will find out that I'm an illustrator...
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Whoa, that's amazing!
Hey Touri, since you're a pro, you can draw the school festival poster for free, right?
I don't really get it, but can I have your autograph? (lol)
This is a disaster...
Aargh, this is such a pain in the ass!
Please, let me make it in time!
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Did you see?
I saw it all
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It's over...
Sorry! I thought it was my phone, and when I opened it, I just happened to see!
Are you... maybe a professional illustrator?!
And you have, like, 50,000 followers! That's a ton!
I've never met a celebrity before!
Goodbye... my peaceful school life...
I see... So there are people who can get this many fans just from their art...
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Aargh, fine, I admit it...!
But in exchange, you absolutely cannot tell anyone at school...?!
Why not? You should brag about it more.
Because it'd be a pain if more people like you started showing up...
Alright then, if you follow me back, I'll keep quiet.
Ugh, what a pain...
This giant freakin' approval-seeker girl...!
Ohisama
@samasama_dasada
penpenpoin
...This 'penpenpoin' one?
That's the one!
Tōhyōtokai Shinkun
RORO
@pavro_ronger
Jeez, it's probably just a private account you only use to follow your classmates, right...?
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penpenpoin
@pen_2_poin
Tweets
Tweets & replies
Media
Likes
Pinned Tweet
penpenpoin @pen_2_poin
?!
My follower count hasn't really been growing lately.
Maybe I should post something a little more risqué?
N-No, you'll get banned for that! Don't do it...!
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Right...
So then...
Do you think I can be like you?
!
W-Well... if you're just aiming for my level, I'm sure you could get there in no time if you try...?
You're too close...
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You're going to be my art teacher!
Alright, I've decided!
What? Why?!
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If I become a pro, tons of people will praise me...
That's all the reason I need, right?
I mean, I never dreamed the perfect person to learn from was right here...
Besides, there's a limit to how cute a selfie can be, but with art, there are no limits.
Stop calling yourself cute.
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If you're just kidding, you should quit while you're ahead.
I'm dead serious!
And you said it yourself earlier, didn't you?
That if I just put in the effort, I can become as good as you.
She's serious...
...In that case, I guess I have to give her a serious answer.
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My bad. That was a lie.
Huh...?
Someone who aims to be a pro for a reason as shallow as wanting praise...
...is guaranteed to give up soon enough.
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...Did I really do the right thing...?
What if she tells everyone about my account just to get back at me...?
No, I'll be fine.
She's probably not the type to do something so malicious... Probably...
...
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The Next Day—
Slide
!
After what I said to her yesterday... Surely she's given up by now...
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Hey, Touri! Look, look!
I bought 'em! ♪
An iPad and an Apple Pencil
Her mental game is way too strong!
Let me tell you something.
It's going to take a lot more than that to make me quit.
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In this case...
...I'll just ignore her!
Hey!
Are you even listening?
penpenpoin
Replying to: @unsugar
How do I become a professional illustrator?
Hmph!
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unsugar... Teacher!
Aargh, fine! You win!
If you're that desperate to know, I'll teach you... the way to become a pro.
Really?!
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But on one condition.
If you're really serious, then you have to upload one piece of art that you drew yourself to your account. Every. Single. Day.
If you can manage to draw something I deem worthy of praise, then I'll teach you.
Got it.
It's a promise, then.
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It's just a passing fancy.
She'll give up in no time...
...
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Tch... Useless...!
The deadline for these revisions is right around the corner... so why am I so bothered by this...?
A classmate of mine is becoming a fellow artist.
There's no reason I shouldn't just teach her properly.
Is it because I think she's looking down on what it means to be an artist?
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No, that's not it... This is jealousy.
I'm jealous of her... of how she can so shamelessly declare that she wants people's praise.
Coming from me, someone who would rather die than say that... I can't help but envy her.
In this world, no matter how much better you are than anyone else, the moment you stand out, people say things like, 'Stop showing off,' or 'Don't get full of yourself.'
She has no idea what that feels like... In a way, she might be the happy one.
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Hard to believe it's already been a week...
She must be about ready to throw in the towel.
!
penpenpoin @ April 21, 2021
Today's practice sketch
...She's one stubborn girl...
Replying to: @pen_2_poin
I'd rather see your usual selfies than this kind of illustration.
penpenpoin @ April 21, 2021
Replying to: @Sa1RxRS2y6W
Shut it! I'm gonna get so good that my drawings will be way cuter than any selfie, so you just keep following and wait!
As expected from the rock-solid mentality girl...
sabun @mosaic... April 21, 2021
Replying to: @pen_2_poin
Meanwhile, I'm in a total slump...
I could really use even a little bit of that confidence right now.
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...
Looks like I'll be pulling an all-nighter today...
That Kurisaki... absent today, huh...
Guess I can finally take it easy for the first time in a while...
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Ando.
You've been speaking with Ooba quite a bit lately, haven't you?
It seems she still hasn't submitted her career path survey, and the deadline is tomorrow. Would you mind delivering this to her, just to be safe?
Uh... I don't really know her well enough to know her address...
Is that so... How about her contact info?
I mean, I know her social media account, if that counts...
Then please ask her for her address.
With privacy concerns these days, I can't be the one to give it out.
Gah!
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Understood...
Standing out never leads to anything good...
Oh, and one more thing.
Despite appearances, Ooba isn't the type to get close to any particular student.
So please don't give up on being her friend, Ando.
Right... I'll do my best.
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penpenpoin
The teacher asked me to give you a form. What's the best way to do that?
It's fine if you don't want to give me your address.
It would be a lot easier if she just refused...
Whoa, fast reply!
Ando
Help me
2021/04/23 15:24
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Unlike rabbits, humans...
...can actually die if they get too lonely.
I've got a really bad feeling about this...
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Kurisaki, what happened?!
Ooba
Touri...
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Help me... My illustration software crashed, and the drawing I was working on is gone...
There should be a backup file saved here. You can probably recover it up to a certain point.
Whoa, you're right! Thank you so much!!
I have to say, I didn't expect you to come rushing over in such a panic~
That's because you sent a message that could be easily misunderstood!
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You're skipping school just to draw, and your parents don't have anything to say about it...?
Ahaha... I live alone, so I tend to lose track of time...
...Wait, so you live here all by yourself?
Yeah. My parents both have jobs that require a lot of travel, so they got me an apartment near the high school.
Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate...
Well, you know how family stuff can be!
And in a way, it's because of my parents that I ended up with this need to be praised all the time...
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I see...
All she ever really wanted was to be praised...
She's just seeking the validation now that she likely never received from her parents...
So this desire of hers... it's just the flip side of that neglect...
It was her heart crying out.
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But me... I was the same way when I started, wasn't I?
I thought drawing just for praise was an impure motivation, but...
that someone who aims to be a pro for a reason as shallow as wanting praise would just quit eventually.
Whether you're a pro or an amateur, the starting point is the same...
The only reason I've been able to keep drawing all this time is because people praised me, isn't it?
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I'm sorry, Kurisaki...
...for what I said the other day, about you only wanting praise.
I never realized how painful it must have been, not getting that from your parents...
Huh...?
Did I say that?
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No... but you just said you can't suppress your need for praise because of your parents...
I did, but it's the other way around.
My parents were the most ridiculously doting people you could imagine.
Ever since I was a kid, they praised me for every little thing. It was almost too much.
I guess it just became ingrained in me...?
And because of that... it's like I developed a constitution where I can't live without being praised a lot...
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So... I think I'm about at my limit...
Are you okay...?
Yeah...
...but I haven't gotten any praise from anyone recently...
...so I think I'm starting to go through withdrawal...
Huh? Wait a sec...
For real...?!
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This is my fault...
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To think I pushed her this far...
I never meant for her to change the whole direction of her account...
At this point... I guess I have no choice but to be honest.
Look...
And I'm not just saying this to be nice, I'm being completely serious...
That self-portrait you drew back then...
It honestly wasn't bad.
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Thank you ♡
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Alright, I'm all fired up now~!
?!
W-Wait, are you okay now?! What about your withdrawal symptoms?!
I'm pretty much always like this, you know?
Though I might have exaggerated a little this time ♡
Wha...
But since you praised me, you're going to keep your promise, right?
Teacher ♡
I was tricked!
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Just so you know, the second you give up, I'm done with this...!
I'll do my best!
Sigh... Why did I go and say something like that?
Ring ring, ring-a-ling ♪
!
Hello?
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Hello, is this unsugar? Thanks for all your hard work.
The character designs for the new project were approved, no problem!
That's a relief...
Although, there is something I need to discuss with you.
It's about one of the background characters you submitted along with the main ones.
Phew...
The author actually has a request regarding that character—
I'm so sorry! Was it strange?! I can redraw it right now...!
Crap! I was barely conscious when I drew that after pulling an all-nighter... I don't even remember what I drew...!
No, it's nothing like that.
The original author actually took a real liking to one of them.
!
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We've decided to make that character you emailed us the main heroine, so we're counting on you.
S-Seriously?
Sticky Note / Medium Size / Selected / Write / Category / Mailbox / Notes / Private / See More
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Several Years Later—
There is no need to watch it live, you know.
C'mon! It's the big debut for both of us.
And you should be grateful, you know?
After all, I'm pretty much the reason you're so successful now.
As if. The original author was just really talented, that's all.
Heeh, listen to you now.
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Then how come the character design looked exactly like me, hmm?
H-Hey, isn't it almost time for the show to start?
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